If you saw my previous journal then you know my cat tom been under the weather, well i thought today get him to the vet he seemed alright but not getting better nor worse so i thought the vets be able to give him some to help him get better. Sadly not they did bloody tests and the news was bad really bad he had so much wrong with him that i cant spell what they where but even with the treatment he most likely not make it,plus with his ages cause we all reckon he about 15 he just had everything against him so the kindest thing to do was let him sleep. I feel terrible i lost my best friend, my family member my baby boy he was my everything my life he gave me hope and reason. He was purring until the end, i just felt so bad and it was horrible to hold my baby head in my hand as i stroked his furr as they put the drug in, it didnt take him long to go was like 2 seconds as he was that weak. Phil was with me when we took tom so i had the support and so did tom.
I really miss him thou being at home doesnt feel the same its cold and empty he was always in my bedroom on my bed and now he not just feels so damn wrong. i just want to bring him back i really do, i wanna hold him smell him just have him with me.
Well im gonna cut this short as it killing me writing this but thank you everyone for your supportive words for tom, he appreciate them. im gonna be away for awhile but again thank you all for the support and kind words
Tom i will always love you and miss you. There no cat or person like you, you never judge me even when i was wrong you never made me feel like scum you made me feel like i could be me without judgement and you always knew how to make me smile. Love you so much boy good night my sweet tom i see you soon.